I'm Not Exactly "Typical"

I know I'm not your typical 20-something-year-old. I see quite a few of my classmates from high school getting married, already married, and/or having babies. I can't talk to them about what their life is like because I possibly couldn't understand as they couldn't understand mine. I've noted on the social webpages the drifting between the class, the widening gap as we all become the people we are. I couldn't talk baby and don't ask me to hold one. They cry, dribble, smell, and are squishy and fragile at the same time. When they're older I'm more comfortable around them, when I can play games with them, pull out my craft box and coloring books and tell them to go nuts, or pull a animated movie from my dvd shelf to share the magic of Disney, Miyazaki, or 80's and 90's television shows. Having kids couldn't be any farther from my mind at this point in my life, even getting married is a "maybe when I'm 30" thought. There's too much I want to do, too much I want to accomplish before I "settle down" (if that is even possible).

I'm happy to spend hours in my favorite cafe and bookstores reading, studying, or working on one of future literary accomplishments. I thrive in the college setting where I spend all day with those that are like minded (we picked the same class, after all) and discuss the readings even after class had ended. I'm doing what makes me happy and how could I possibly wish this to end. I don't see myself ever letting myself stop furthering my education, I have already decided what I want to get my master's in and I still have a little bit before I get my associates.

The only thing I don't enjoy about my life is my current job. I work as a cashier in a craft store, and while the craft store setting is something I find myself enjoying, cashiering is not. I like having little breaks between customers, I don't like being told to stand in one place for 4-8 (sometimes even 10 hours), and I especially dislike the holidays in retail. This however, is something I am working on changing. I submitted an application to the library in my college today and have started fantasizing spending hours shelving books and finding books to my growing "to read" list on my goodreads account.

Yes, I am an oddity. I'm the enigma of my family. The nerd they don't quite understand and yet still embrace. I think my mom has even given up waiting for my to bring a boyfriend home or announce I have a date because when that does happen (rarely) it doesn't seem to last long. She's convinced I'm a relationship saboteur  and so maybe I am. Maybe I am not ready for a long lasting relationship, maybe what I need are more friendships. Friends to share my hopes and dreams and accomplishments with. Yes, that's what I need right now.