Usually after I get through periods like this, I take the time to reevaluate my life and how I'm living it. As hard as the periods are when my bpd gets out of control, they can be good for me because afterwards I look at my life and try and figure out what causes these periods to start. My thinking is that there has to be a trigger of some sort. The last couple times have been stress. So I need to learn how to handle my stress.
Most of my stress is self caused and I believe it gets to me because of the fast pace that I live my life. This is pretty typical of pretty much anyone at these period in history. We all do it. We hurry through things, always fill our time with a lot of things including smart phones where we're constantly checking our facebooks, twitters, and email. I'm guilty of this and I've seen many people around me do this.
So I think it's time to look at how I manage my time. I need to stop jam packing my schedule with things to do and instead just focus on the things that I already have in time. I have been doing a good job for the most part when I've been around friends, but even then I've been pulling my phone out to check things, and as someone who loves people this isn't a good thing.
So I think it's time to start taking my time with things, slow things down and not to jam pack my schedule with things to do. I need to enjoy the time that I spend with friends and loved ones and enjoy life. Stop and smell the roses more often.
Maybe with this new practice in place, I can avoid triggers.
